Gone Fishing

Yesterday, after work, I went fishing. I debating on whether to go to a baseball game, or John and Chris's soccer game (a playoff) and could not decide which to attend. I decided to go to neither and just go fishing. I caught 4 fish. 1 catfish, 2 sun fish, and 1 trout. None of them were worth keeping to clean, fillet, and eat.

Fishing is one of those things that people don't get.  Sitting there by the water with a cold beer in your hand and the sounds of nature around you just does something for you.  The body relaxes and the mind soon follows.  It's like yoga for your brain.

Musicians

LCD, you're a drummer. Drummers are weird. You're weird. But, it's a cool weird, not a scary weird. Plus, I like weird.

Bass players are a very strange breed. That's all that needs to be said.

I'm a musical gal though folks. So, I guess I'm weird too.

Musicians are not scum.

People can be scum, both men and women. Their profession has nothing to do with their degree of scumminess.

That's my take.

Music, my escape ...

I'm in the office alone today. 2 songs keep running through my mind. I try to push them away. I turn up the radio and sing along. These 2 songs keep taking turns running in the back of my mind no matter what I do.

I'm such a sap.

Bonnie Raitt
I Can't Make You Love Me

Turn down the lights, turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me, tell me no lies
Just hold me close, don't patronize - don't patronize me

'Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark, in these final hours
I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
'Cause I can't make you love me, if you don't

I'll close my eyes, then I won't see
The love you don't feel when you're holding me
Morning will come and I'll do what's right
Just give me till then to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight

'Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark, in these final hours
I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
'Cause I can't make you love me, if you don't


George Straight
You Can't Make A Heart Love Somebody

At a table for two
With candlelight and wine
That diamond burnin' holes in his pockets
Thinkin' now's the perfect time
When he popped the question he could see
The teardrops fill her eyes
She said I knew this was comin', and I'm sorry
But I hope you realize

You can't make a heart love somebody,
You can tell it what to do
But it won't listen at all
You can't make a heart love somebody
You can lead a heart to love
But you can't make it fall.

Then she reached for his hand
And said I want you to know
I've done everything that I know of
To make the feelin' grow
I've begged and I've pleaded with my heart
But there's no gettin' through
My heart's the only part of me
That's not in love with you

You can't make a heart love somebody,
You can tell it what to do
But it won't listen at all
You can't make a heart love somebody
You can lead a heart to love
But you can't make it fall.

You can lead a heart to love
But you can't make it fall.

I Think I Think Too Much

I'm noticing a trend when I read my thought processes here. I care more about what other people are feeling than I do about my own feelings. That's probably not a good thing. Guess I can add that to my list of things to work on.

Myths

I've been thinking about control a lot. It's funny, because I've been sitting here trying to take the time to get these thoughts down, and I ran across a journal entry at another site regarding control.

I'm a bit obsessive compulsive about most things in my life. It's not a good feeling. As the matter of fact, it can be all-consuming at times and drain every ounce of energy from my being.

There are things we can control about ourselves. Our behaviors for instance. Anything can be learned and/or unlearned. We can't control anything, however, that involves someone else. Control, in that sense, is a myth.

Insomnia, the other white meat!

Sleep escaped me last night. My thoughts were of love.  Do we need it?

I've decided that it's better to lose a love and learn from that loss than to close one’s self off from the world. I've knocked down and rebuilt the walls around me so many times I can't count them. Frankly, it's exhausting rebuilding them and keeping them impenetrable, so I've decided to just leave them down.

I'm pooped. I'm going to have a giant cup of coffee and try to get some work done.

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